I'm Back Again

I was away on the Isle of Wight for a five days. My tweets will fill you in as to the little things that happened and I will embellish and add pics in a bit. But today's a busy day of baking for a wedding shower and then having drinks with a friend who is in a bit of a career pickle. But I just wanted to quickly say hello here and let you know there is more to come. xxx

Exdar

It's like radar, but it's all about your ex. They know. Some signal goes out. Some inexplicable signal and they know. They know it's time to get back in touch. Why is it that when you think you're over someone completely they send you a few texts, suggest you visit and meet their new dog and bam you're a sucker again?

It's hard not to be a sucker. You thought those feelings were completely gone. After all wasn't this the same Jerk who owed you money and you almost had to sue him? The same Jerk who was a prat when you thought you had breast cancer- yes him, H! Him! Run away! Run far, far away.

Oh and he's said that since things have just become more settled now he's going to become a different person in the next few weeks. To which you wittily inquire if he's getting a sex change. How very funny. How very flirty. STOP IT! WHAT, ARE YOU INSANE???

So what triggers said exdar? I have found that for me it is usually when I meet someone new that the exes suddenly remember my number. What blows me away about this current bout of exdar is that there is no one new. Uh... there is...ahem...someone old, however. Someone who has been around long before J-. That's not developing into anything and was just a bit of fun as far as I'm concerned. However, it was enough to trigger the ol' exdar.

And how do I know this is a case of exdar and not just a coincidence? Because there was more than one ex in the last 2 days who got in touch with me out of the blue. There were three of them. There was the aforementioned ex who inspired this posting and then two minor exes (if you can even call them that) who lasted about a month each. All for some reason only known to the universe decided to make contact yesterday and today.

Of course exdar works both ways. I recently began thinking about a university boyfriend for no apparent reason. I looked him up and sent him an email. Turns out he's getting married and he said I was the second ex to have gotten in touch with him. See, it's the mysterious powers of exdar at work. Its goal is to test your resiliency and resolve in this your new found place in life without your previous ex.

So, it's now up to me to resist this mysterious power which has brought my ex back into flirty communication. I must be strong to--

Oh excuse me. My phone's just beeped.

Please Take Me Back

Uh....hello....No wait, please don't go.... I know it's been a while and you have every right to be annoyed with me. I used to blog with a frequency akin to rabbit copulation and you got rather fond of reading my mindless dribble. I became part of your life.

But then I stopped writing for a long period of time. And then I returned and you were relieved. But then I stopped writing again and then started again. And then I go away. And then I come back.

I know you're sick of my vanishing from blogger and then coming back and apologising and begging your forgiveness. The lack of commitment to my writing must be driving you mad. You probably want to chuck me, delete me from your blog roll, tell me to go to hell and that you never want to read me again. You must think that I'm a blog tease. You're probably right. I probably am, but that's going to change. I promise you.

I know I've been shit. I'm sorry I've hurt you. There's no good reason or excuse for my behaviour aside from the ones I've given before- work, writer's block, etc. However, like I said I'll change. This time will be different. This time I'll blog about funnier more interesting things. I won't obsess so much on my love life except when it's something that might amuse you or peak your interest. I'll be more attentive to you as well. I'll check my blog roll more often and find out how you are doing.

To be fair it's not as if I've gone away completely this last time. You can just load this page and look to the right to see what I've twittered lately. In fact you could even join Twitter and follow me there if you haven't already. Also, you can have a peek a further down on the right to see what music I've been listening to lately as well. I know. I know. You're right. It isn't the same and like I said I'll write more here. I promise.

So, please give me another chance. Let's give this another go. We've got the foundation for this to be the beginning- or rather rejuvenation- of a beautiful relationship. It would be a shame to throw such potential away.

I love you. I really do. Please let me back on to your computer monitors and start reading me again. Please.